Spring in
Kansas meant blooming flowers, longer days, thunder storms, and tornado
warnings. As a child I was taught to be prepared for a cyclone. We had drills
in school to train us to how to calmly make a line, file into the hall, sit
down without talking, and put our heads on our knees and cover them with our
hands. We also learned that if the tornado siren sounded as we were walking to
or from school we should run to the nearest house to take cover. If there were
no houses nearby then we should throw ourselves into a ditch and again protect
our heads.
These
instructions were repeated so many times that they became a part of me. And
yet, I do not remember once hearing a tornado siren in the middle of the day.
They usually came late at night. In truth, they were probably at about eight in
the evening rather than at midnight. However, since my bedtime was seven it always
seemed like the middle of the night when my parents would rouse me from a deep
sleep. They would throw a raincoat over my pajamas and grab the flashlight. We
would run across the street where my best friends lived and go down into their
basement.
It was an
unfinished basement, musty and damp, used as a laundry room, storage, and a
playground for rainy days. There was an old couch, a few chairs, and some mats
on the floor. I think the idea was that the children could lie on the mats and
go back to sleep. That rarely happened.
How could we
fall back asleep when there was so much excitement? We had friends to giggle
with, grown-up conversations of our mothers to eavesdrop on, and weather
updates on the transistor radio to listen to. Our fathers were usually not with us. Instead
they would congregate upstairs on the back porch and check the sky for funnels.
Eventually the all-clear would sound and we would go home and back to sleep.
The following morning in school the tornado warning would be the main topic of
conversation.
As I grew
older, more often than not, I was awake for the inevitable sounding of the
tornado sirens of the springtime. That did not take away from the excitement,
though. Somehow, as children, the knowledge that tornadoes destroy, injure, and
even kill, went over our heads. We enjoyed the change of routine and gathering
in the basement.
All that
changed when I was almost twelve years old. Spring had come and gone without
many tornado warnings. It had been a normal summer. One evening in September
the sky was cloudy and there was a little rain. Without a siren sounding we
were struck by a tornado.
I remember
sitting in the family room with my parents. Suddenly, the lights went out. We
heard the sound of breaking glass and a loud noise like a train whistle. My
father grabbed the transistor radio but when the announcer announced, It’s a
beautiful night here in Kansas, my mother threw it across the room. We
huddled together while my mother recited Shema Yisroel and sang The
Battle Hymn of the Republic.
And then it
was all over. There was complete quiet and we began to move carefully. Gingerly
my parents found the flashlight and opened the box of Shabbat candles. We had
enough light to know that we were not injured.
There was a
knock at the door. Our next door neighbor had a gash on his forehead which my
mother, a nurse, taped up. She and my aunt, who lived down the street and was
also a nurse, went door-to-door skirting fallen electrical lines, handing out
Shabbat candles, and offering first aid.
The night
had been full of near misses. In our house, for example, the windows were
broken in every room except the family room where we sat. Nearby a family had
rearranged their baby’s room that day, moving his crib to a new spot. Had they
not done so, the baby would have been crushed by the tree that blew through the
wall where the baby’s bed had been just several hours earlier. A classmate of mine, home alone, heard the
sound of the tornado and locked himself into a large cupboard. He stayed there
until his parents came home and found him safe in that cupboard between all the
debris.
We learned
later that the tornado had developed overhead and radar had not picked up on
it. Despite the extensive damage, few
had been injured. In fact, the worse injury happened to the man working in a
liquor store. He had a cut artery from the broken glass.
I was not
tuned into the Jewish months at that point in my life. I knew the tornado had
happened several weeks before Rosh Hashanah but I did not realize the
significance of it happening in Elul. I had never learned that it was on the
first of Elul that Moses went back up to Mount Sinai, following the Sin of the
Golden Calf, to pray for forgiveness for the Jewish people. I had never heard
the song, The King is in the Field, nor its explanation that HaShem
comes closer to us with the beginning of Elul. No one had told me that although
we can always repent, the forty days preceding Yom Kippur are a time of special
Divine mercy and forgiveness.
Although I
did not know any of this there was an important lesson for me that night of the
tornado. Why had HaShem made the one tornado that struck my home happen in the
fall and not the spring? Why had He caused it to develop overhead so there were
absolutely no warning signs? Why had there been so few injuries and no deaths
among the extensive damage? Perhaps it was to open my eyes to the reality that
there are miracles happening daily. I think that Elul was the first time that I
began to understand that HaShem had not just created the world and stopped.
Rather, He created it and stayed involved with it and all the mundane details
that happen every day. Thus the foundation was laid for me to learn more about
His Torah. Almost fifty years have passed since the night of the tornado. I
have not forgotten its lesson.
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Ester, davka, the recent Torah Portions of the Week have given us warnings...
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